i miss it
I miss having a Church home. I miss having people I can call on for help and prayers. But you know what I realized?? I didn't really have that for quite some time. Yeah, I could call folks for prayers, always...and still can I'm sure! But I haven't had a close knit, truly close group of people from a Church in a long time...we've been on the outskirts, with the small exception of VBS time. I hate that. And I don't want to feel like people feel obligated to include us, which is sometimes what happens. I love the people who try so hard to include us, but I just want to say to them : it's OK we understand...we don't fit in, and we never really have. We just need to find out where we DO belong and go there. So we'll search until we find that place. I just hope it's sooner rather than later. And I don't want to feel pressured into a decision....