9 Days.....

Only 9 days until we get to meet our little girl. I am excited, nervous, and a little scared : all at the same time. What a strange experience it is, knowing the exact moment I'm going to give birth. Knowing how it will happen, knowing that I don't have to go through the labor pains. It's weird, but I suppose one could say I went through labor twice (and then some) with Daniel. This will certainly be an interesting experience, to say the least. I just hope the Insurance company doesn't make me stay in the hospital the full 4 days they require of c-section patients. I hope it's smooth, and my recovery is quick and relatively painless. I truly hope that the majority of my pain last time came from having gone through such a prolonged labor, only to be followed by an emergency c-section. I guess we'll see.

I can't help but be a little disappointed because I really wanted a VBAC this time. I wanted to experience labor again (as strange as that may seem) but this time I wanted it to be fruitful....I wanted to experience childbirth the "real" way. I am having to tell myself that any way which produces a healthy child IS the "real" way, but it's hard. I'm just attempting to focus solely on the fact that I will get to hold my baby girl, and I'll get to do it sooner rather than later.

Ah....pink dresses. And bows. And shiny black patent leather shoes. I can't wait.